I was not too inspired to write nowadays.. Too many things that I cant put it here, for the fear of hurting somebody else.. hurting some silent observers..

Its not really fun to write something not really 'whole-heartly'.. u know what I mean?

so Im just sharing this pic with you.. taken in my little hometown sometimes end of last year..

Have nothing much to say except Selamat Menyambut awal Muharram. Semoga it is a new beginning for us.. new beginning for something good... or new beginning for a new life..

Whatever it is, just know that I missed you guys... January has been extremely hectic for me. We should meet up soon!

I dont know what to write.. Its been extremely hectic since new year.. everything is just challenging.. sometimes u just wanna let it out from your head. you just wanna vent... about little little things.. sometimes u dont mean it so much, but u just say it for the sake of venting our of your brain.. then after all that venting, your brain feels lighter.. Its an outlet for me to just let it out.

Met a friend for few hours in the airport last weekend.. he was just stopping by. It was so good to meet a friend who have never judge you no matter what you do. I try not to judge people. That day somebody told me "oh what I like about you is that you never judge me.".. I try not to judge people. I dont like to be judged myself.. People do things for their own reason.. who am I to say what they do is wrong or what.. let them do what they want

Anyway about this friend whom I met at the airport.. He gave me a ToyWatch watch.. supposed to be the in thing in Hollywood nowadays.. Sweet! Gave me Gold pendant of the shape of an airplane.. very significant! :).. and gave me a beanbag tripod for my camera. oh and I didnt get him anything.. Im embarassed! but I just have no time to go shopping right now. Well I hope to see him again soon.

Im working on my coffee table book now.. 2 version.. one is censorred version and one is uncensored version.. The uncensored one would be for a friend or family who appreciate visual arts.. The censored one to be passed around amond general family members hahaha Am I hypocrite? No... I just have full respect of them, thats all.. :).. Even if you wanna judge me as hypocrite, who cares.. hehe

Anyway Im putting here the pic taken at my home town.. it was a pic of paddy field.. I never really go into these paddy fields.. I have taken quite a number of interesting photos.. I just enjoy em more and more now.. gives me some kinda satisfaction..





and Oh.. I just purchased 2 tickets to Siem Reap, Cambodia.. it was going cheap.. RM450 including tax and everything for 2 people, thats cheap! Ive been wanting to visit Angkor Wat for a long time

I wanna buy another destination soon.. somewhere near because I cant be taking too long leave. I dunno whether I wanna go to Bali again like the last time.. Travelling alone is what I need, going to spa every day.. visit the pura.. enjoying the locals.. visiting the pasar.. visiting the art galleries ohhhhh! and may be visit one or two famous photographers there yum yum..

Or I should join the rainforest music festival in july..thats kinda cool too.. would be perfect even to enhance my photography skills hmmm

or I should go to Vietnam..

I wish I can take 2 weeks off then I can go to somewhere further.. I missed Jiuli, Marama & Rachel in New Zealand.. I always dream of meeting them someday. That would be perfect I dont know what to write.. Its been extremely hectic since new year.. everything is just challenging.. sometimes u just wanna let it out from your head. you just wanna vent... about little little things.. sometimes u dont mean it so much, but u just say it for the sake of venting our of your brain.. then after all that venting, your brain feels lighter.. Its an outlet for me to just let it out.

Met a friend for few hours in the airport last weekend.. he was just stopping by. It was so good to meet a friend who have never judge you no matter what you do. I try not to judge people. That day somebody told me "oh what I like about you is that you never judge me.".. I try not to judge people. I dont like to be judged myself.. People do things for their own reason.. who am I to say what they do is wrong or what.. let them do what they want

Anyway about this friend whom I met at the airport.. He gave me a ToyWatch watch.. supposed to be the in thing in Hollywood nowadays.. Sweet! Gave me Gold pendant of the shape of an airplane.. very significant! :).. and gave me a beanbag tripod for my camera. oh and I didnt get him anything.. Im embarassed! but I just have no time to go shopping right now. Well I hope to see him again soon.

Im working on my coffee table book now.. 2 version.. one is censorred version and one is uncensored version.. The uncensored one would be for a friend or family who appreciate visual arts.. The censored one to be passed around amond general family members hahaha Am I hypocrite? No... I just have full respect of them, thats all.. :).. Even if you wanna judge me as hypocrite, who cares.. hehe

Anyway Im putting here the pic taken at my home town.. it was a pic of paddy field.. I never really go into these paddy fields.. I have taken quite a number of interesting photos.. I just enjoy em more and more now.. gives me some kinda satisfaction..





and Oh.. I just purchased 2 tickets to Siem Reap, Cambodia.. it was going cheap.. RM450 including tax and everything for 2 people, thats cheap! Ive been wanting to visit Angkor Wat for a long time

I wanna buy another destination soon.. somewhere near because I cant be taking too long leave. I dunno whether I wanna go to Bali again like the last time.. Travelling alone is what I need, going to spa every day.. visit the pura.. enjoying the locals.. visiting the pasar.. visiting the art galleries ohhhhh! and may be visit one or two famous photographers there yum yum..

Or I should join the rainforest music festival in july..thats kinda cool too.. would be perfect even to enhance my photography skills hmmm

or I should go to Vietnam..

I wish I can take like 2 weeks off..my destination can be slightly further.. I could visit Marama, Jiuli and Rachel in New Zealand.. I missed them and I really wish to see them someday..

anyway Im venting here again.. just bear with me..

My Nikon broke down again for the 2nd time (since august 06 when I bought the camera). Can you believe it?

I sent to Nikon Malaysia on 20th and was dissappointed with the kind of service I received from them.

I started comparing them with Canon, their biggest closest competitor in SLR users. I mean, Ive been having my SLR camera for years and I never have any problem with my film SLR camera! and I thought Nikon was build to be durable for users like me!

Im dissappointed because they only have ONE service center in KL (2 for the whole of malaysia, can u believe it?).

On Dec 27, I called to ask about the status of my cam and the person who answered me informed that I should know that it took 10 days for them to respond because the queue apparently is very long. Thats certainly not the kinda answer I wanna hear from somebody providing services to clients!! It was dissappointing and the girl was not comforting either. argh!

Yesterday I decided to give them an email. Found an email ID from Nikon website and send them an email...Not even an angry email but just from a very dissappointed user of nikon.

Guess what? Less than one and a half hour after the email, I received a call from Nikon saying that I can come and collect my camera... HAHAHAHAHHAHA!!

Its not a nice feeling when you have to poke something to get a better service.. but I guess I have to do what I have to do.. I need my baby back badly!

But now Im happy again. I got my baby back!

Time for more experimenting! *wink*

Only God knows how I felt when I first saw my pic in the "Digital Camera & Photography" magazine. I was jumping up and down, going to the left and to the right.. and felt like hugging some strangers to share my joy!

First person I called was Asrul.. he is one of the reason why I made it there obviously.. Then I called Zul, Din, Lyn... sms my sifu.. sms Ghaz.. and a few other friends.. I just couldnt contained my excitement. It was my first contest and I made it!

2 person I have to thank for this..

first is my sifu

and second is my muse...

both for believing in me :)..

Thank you! from the bottom of my heart .

Semalam tengok cerita Cinta with Zul..

What I can say is that.. bawak la tissue banyak2 bila nak pegi tengok..

It was a really good movie.. A lot of catchy words that just stick to your mind..

It was 5 love stories...

Between a sister with her younger brother.

Between a lady with his alzheimer male friend

Between a girl and a celebrity who is afraid to express his feelings in public..

Between a husband and his wife, who left him for another guy.. only the young daughter know how painful the divorce can be

Between a girl and her new-found friend..

What I remembered most is one phrase...

Something like this

"The person whom you want to love so much, is the hardest person to be loved"

Isnt it so true?

I sometimes think that Love is still a myth... except love to God.. love from your families (mom, dad , brothers , sisters, nieces and nephews).. and love from your friend.

I also know that a person who loves you the most happens to be your friend.. this I know.

Apart from that, that love between man and woman as lovers is a myth... Only happen in movies.

what do you guys think?

"Pencarian yg jauh membutakan hati kita untuk pertemuan yg amat dekat".
Mungkin kah?

Leaving on a jet plane...

Mood: Need to listen to this song by Ennio Morricone "Cinema Paradiso" while reading this

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Im gonna write a lil bit tonite.. Im writing this from my sofa, while watch American Next Top Model.. I have my laptop on my lap (hey where it should be!) .. connected to 3G.. and writing this at the same time. The only meals I have today was my breakfast.. which I had it at noon! It was just so many things to do. Im sooo hungry now!

My trip to Jakarta was confirmed just now, which gives me even more things to do. Seriously, I dont feel like going to Jakarta. I would rather go to Bangkok though :P ..

Majed called me again today. He was the 1st person I really admired in the world of Flickr. His pictures was something I can never take.. It was just an impossible angle.. and I really envy him for that. A year back, he presented me with something that has definitely boosted my inclination towards photography. I will forever thankful for that. So finally to be able to hear from him...and share with him on my artistic inspiration, and having him to understand what I feel in terms of expressing myself, that was just amazing.. and today, to find out that he was also a taurus baby (his bday is just 2 days after me..), it was just awesome.. no wonder I feel that artistic connections with him... I cant explain it..

May be I will see him in January. That would be very nice.

Talking about photos, a company actually interested to use one of my pic for their internal report. Made me happy. A few of my photos were selected for some tourism websites... I guess what I want is not the money, but credit when its due. Thats all .. and prove that my pic was selected for that purpose.. 

On the same topic, I sent 3 of my pics to a 'full body portrait' competition in one of the local digital photography magazine. My first competition! I was nervous and excited at the same time. I need to buy the next issue of the mag to find out if I ever made it... I wish!! It would be a good boost to my nearly-becoming-mundane photography .. So tengok2 la in the next issue of the mag if I made it ya!

Mood: Listening to Chante Moore "Free/Sail On"

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On the same topic of artistic inspiration, I did a few experiments lately.. It was an amazing feelings to be able to share inspirations and to be able to translate those ideas into photograph.. It is just so satisfying! I already have some ideas and inspirations for my next experiments... Something very arty.. Something very symbolic.. a combination of things I like.. Men.. Good Music.. Pablo Neruda's poem .. oh so many things! I just hope I can translate all that in a good photograph.. wow just the thought of it made me tingle inside.. so exciting! I also wanna try something different than what  I used to..like something gothic.. something dark .. or something fetish.. any suggestions?

Oh I hope to meet some flickr member when Im in Jakarta next week. The last time i was there, I wasnt inspired. Didnt take any pictures (except for a few bubbles photos I took at the hotel that I accidently deleted!!) .. So hopefully if I meet a few flickr memberw there, I would be more inspired to take pic of something jakarta. Not the traffic jam though..

Not looking forward for tomorrow's presentation..Most probably because Im sooo not ready for it. Waaaaa ... I have been too busy with other works that I havent even had time to prepare for the presentation.. waaaaaa..

Anyway, on the other exciting note, there's a new exciting movie called "The red Kebaya".. it looks really good!! I guess I have to wait till I come back home.. Oh man, I'll be so busy in Dec..with personal life to attend to..and family matters...

Oh I soooo need that weekend break to Pangkor.. but sorry Asha. I think I need total relax this weekend before my trip to jakarta. So many things to complete. Need to make sure that all the documentations and programs and everything else are in order before my trip. Im not looking forward to go there. My client there didnt have any sense of urgency.. No such thing as deadline for them. Thats just crazy..

Mood: Listening to Secret Garden "Nocturne"  

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Oh Im so sleepy now.. my sofa has that effect on people... Dunno why... It was just too comfy and cosy, I guess..

SOmething happened to me on the road just now.. somehow Im so glad that nothing happened to me.. scary but Im glad it was over.

What else..

Oh I have so many things to do but Im watching Project Runway next..

cya


ps

I should be gripping to the moment.. and enjoy it while it lasts...



Last mood: Listen to Alejandro Sanz "Cuando Nadie Me Ve"

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When nobody sees me... ummm...

Selected by Flickr to be in their Explorer Interestingness :).. Dunno whats the criteria, but they picked em.. :)



1. Flickr Meetup at KL Bird Park v1, 2. PMS?, 3. Pasar Siti Khadijah in Kelantan, Malaysia, 4. Experiment: Life, 5. My lil niece now a big girl, 6. Life is not a box of... v2, 7. KL Tower and KLCC - HDR, 8. Taman Botani, Putrajaya, 9. Bowling in Alamanda, Putrajaya, 10. waterlily3, 11. klcc on friday night

Recently Ive been receiving a lot of positive comments on my artistic work.. Some really positive one like

They can see my work in London Art Museum...

or New York Art Gallery...

or Im upgraded myself to Louvre Paris .. previously it was at Tate gallery hehe...

Somebody said that I should make exhibition at National Art Gallery..

WOW they have no idea what that means to me.. Thats a dream of mine...




What I have achieved in my artistic world is to have a small portfolio book titled "Emotions", which display all my work in terms of face reaction, emotions and body language.

One more unaccomplished dream is to have a coffee table book to display all of my works.. this is definitely achievable.. I think I have enough work for a 200 pages book.

This will happen .. when? I have no idea. But yes! it will happen.. :)

A lot of people didnt know this side of me.. the dark side. I would not be able to share with everybody as Art is a subjective matter.. Some will appreciate, some will not..

Its ok. I dont need to be understood.